Sunday, November 27, 2011

Blame Everybody. Blame Nobody. Blame Yourself.

You have to “blame” something, right? Or someone?

Yes. and No.

We wanted to take this moment to discuss a pet peeve…because we can, because this is our blog, and that's all the reason we need.

If you follow enough people on Twitter you get a real cross-section of people, and their varying views about personal responsibility. What we want to talk about it something we've seen being said for months now, in different ways, which all boil down to the same concept.

One view we’ve seen, on more than one occasion, are opinions like in a tweet we read today that reference people’s bad actions, stating they can always claim they are a result of their environment, and then they referenced Twitter as being a hotbed for such behaviour (when in fact, it’s people everywhere, all the time, always).

Now, we are a fan of the person who wrote the tweet (and we are obviously not going to name names), and we’re sure she was doing what The Boyfriend refers to as “taking the piss out of someone” or in this case, someones; which means, making a joke, obviously; we hope she was anyway.

We have also seen some tweets (on several occasions) saying demeaning things about people, their actions, and making reference to a history of child of abuse not being a valid reason for behavior…which really appalled us, if only because in the snarky bitchy way they worded it. Not because we ARE a victim of such a thing as child abuse (though we are) but the audacity of the people writing such things which are clearly ignorant and insensitive.

This way of thinking is not in which we prescribe, the opinion that bad behavior can simply be blamed on (or not blamed on) environmental and sociological factors, because while the formation of a person, their behaviours and beliefs, starts young in life (and continue all through life) and people are absolutely influenced by life factors…people can overcome it, if they choose to shift their paradigm of thinking, and responding, yet some choose to be a victim of it, using it as a crutch in life for their poor behavior and problems in life.

"My life is this way, or I think this way because of A, B and C...and that's just the way I am." (usually stated by a miserable person, who makes other people miserable, because of A, B and C)

People need only study/read (basic) developmental psychology and sociology texts, or you know, think about things logically, to understand…being a product of ones environment, a product of their upbringing, a product of their experiences with the world is how people develop as a human being.

Now, this isn't meant to sound preachy, we just get tired of willful ignorance, and want to share this way of we don't find people, and stab them instead. See writing saves lives. *wink*

Seriously though, this understanding is how we have survived and been able to manage people, their actions, their emotions and attitudes; and how we, over time, have worked to accept people, cull patience; and also understand when we can't continue to be in the presence of people who do not understand and accept that people just do not spontaneously and blindly become who they are; which is the point we are trying to make.

There is scientific data and research in psychological sociology up the ying-yang to support the concept of human development - you can find some of it by using Google, and books, but please…Wikipedia is not a solid source of information all on its own…while it DOES reference good sources of information, it’s not even an adequate Cliff’s Notes (do they still make those? Are we old now?).

Back at it then.

One thing to always keep in mind, is that while you are a product of your environment and experiences, its how you choose to respond to it that is your choice, that's the part you have control over.

Here’s an example, and this is a basic one to understand, mostly because lots of people (most) have relationship where things like this happen:

One person in a relationship gets angry at their significant other about something likely insignificant and so they yell at them, or does something to make them realize they have done something wrong, and even though the significant other understands their partner “may be overreacting”, the significant other apologizes for whatever they did. What happens from there may vary, of course...grudges may be help on either side, deterioration of the relationship...whatever, it could go in endless directions.

If the person who is angry would take a moment to think about whether or not their anger is founded in something concrete or important, before they yell and get upset, they may find that perhaps their significant other is entitled to an apology too. It’s not THEIR fault that the other person got angry...simply stated...

It's not what happens to you, but how you react to it that matters.~ Epictetus
That’s just one example, obviously sometimes people deserve an angry outburst, but they also deserve to have a partner, friend, co-worker, stranger etc, who acts towards them accordingly, because, don't you? People shouldn't let the negative aspects of their upbringing and experiences destroy them as a person, or let them destroy another person, because it's never-ending madness.
Of course WE don't always prescribe to this (the part where we analyze ourselves before we react...the blame we usually accept), it's not always easy, but we try. This past weekend was a failure in which we had an outburst of words in a Facebook message to The Father...we said some mean things to him, and they should have been directed at someone else (or nobody else), but we said them out of pain and humiliation...we know that...and we felt bad the next day. We have yet to apologize, but...we're just trying to be honest. It's not easy. (and we will apologize...)

We've just gotten tired of people thinking outside influences shouldn't be a reason for behavior and actions, and experiences with others like friends, parents, relatives, strangers, for the way they act, they are a valid reason for people's actions, and they are environment (experience, upbringing and human interaction/relations) which are what develop a person’s perception, beliefs, evaluation ability and actions; however, that doesn't mean that the person cannot control, change or overcome the characteristics they develop from those experiences. All it takes is the will and desire to take personal responsibility.

Your attitude, as a human being, is expected to develop and continue to grow over time based on continued experience.

Need someone to blame? You, like us, should probably look in a mirror first.
We'd love to hear opinion on this, because after all, it's based on ours only, which has been influenced by our current experiences to date (which are those with people, texts, University classes, and shared communication). We love debate, and we don't get a lot of it.

Anyway, thanks for reading...sorry if you didn't find it interesting enough, there is a whole crap load of other stuff to read here, about sex and food, and all that...just take a look around.

Is anyone else exhausted?

~Frank et al

Thursday, November 24, 2011

We Give Thanks

All else aside (yesterdays post 'Thanks For The Freedom'

We are thankful for:
  • The amazing people of Twitter, without whom, this last year, we would not have survived (don't understand that then you haven't read enough of our blog). Thank you <3
  • Our boyfriend James, who puts up with us...because let us tell's a picnic, full of irritating and fruistertaing ants, some days. And he has the patience of a saint...most days. (we love you Noodle...and of course you know which ones of us do).
  • Family, those who deserve it, even The Mother...because...well...we're happy we were born? Yeah...that *sigh* (there is a bit of a story about how we almost weren't...but that's for another day)
  • Relatively good physical health
  • Self (selves?) awareness
  • That we have the capability and will, somehow, to survive, over and over again...
  • That we have touched people's lives, made them happier, made them smile, made them laugh, made them think, made them hope, made them be comfortable with who they are...
  • We are thankful, most of the time, for us...because if it wasn't for us we'd never have survived, right from the start.
  • Despite the implications of Thanksgiving...(the real ones...the ones some find offensive, which we wrote about yesterday: you. Thank you for reading our blog. Thank you for letting us be will never understand how much you have all done for our crazy, confused, tortured, struggling soul...and we hope you continue to do it <3
From all of us, to all of you...
~Frank et al

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Thanks For The Freedom


It is a celebration of thanks, to be certain...but also, a time to remember what the privilege of beng an American really cost. Yes, we know…this isn’t Independence Day, but Thanksgiving is a celebration that paved the path to Independence Day, whether you know the history, or can appreciate it, or even agree – this is our view. This is the time of year we acknowledge the real people who died for our freedom.

Thanksgiving is a holiday that originally paved the way to the beginning of White America being founded. Many U.S. history books neglect to comment* on the fate of the helpful Indians, nor do schools generally discuss what happened in the years following the Thanksgiving Feast. (For someone else’s perspective/opinion and a brief history read:, because we couldn’t write it better than he did); they merely tell you to be Thankful this time of year, often times to God.
We're not writing today to "stand on a soapbox”, we merely desire to reflect on the irony of The First Thanksgiving, and that White Europeans initially left England to find a place where they could be free to practice their own religion...and then those people tried to force the native people of this country to follow their own practices, and told them that their spiritual beliefs were wrong. They wanted a country founded on separation of religion from the government, and they went in search of land where they could enjoy religious freedom; and if you believe people found it and enjoy it, even today, then you are not living in the America we know.

This weekend people in The United States will give thanks for family, for a roof over your head, for all that they have (because many do not have the luxuries you may enjoy, even in the vast freedom and opportunity of America), some may give thanks for all the freedom that comes with being American; but we hope they don't forget to give thanks to the people who used to live in the place they/we now call our country. They will not remember, or likely acknowledge, when Giving Thanks this weekend, that there were people who died trying to protect the land that was theirs, from people, some theirs, yours and our ancestors, so we could enjoy our freedoms, while taking it away from others. If people are to be proud and thankful then they should also recognize and understand in order to appreciate truly, all that they have; empty thanks and ignorant pride is worse than pride itself. (If you are to subscribe to things like basic "sin")
I'd like to be thankful for the freedoms we have, despite our personal misfortunes...but I find it hard without being disrespectful, so instead I am, we are, humbled by not only the tragedies of the past, but the lives of people.

Don’t agree? That’s fine, we’ve written about Freedom, and how much we are thankful for things like freedom of speech (…have a problem with us expressing our freedom? What kind of American would you be if you did?


The following excerpts are only a portion (about 1/3rd) of the original story, which can be found here:

And just for fun....

Happy Thanksgiving by the way, a day when the average American will, in one meal alone, consume at least 3000 calories. ("Your Body On A Holiday Feast". Women's Health Magazine. November 2011: 20). We can hardly wait to throw the feed bag on...

And while you enjoy gorging yourself this Thanksgiving…be thankful.

Simpson just announced to the world via HuffPost Weird News that she's decided to go on a diet, but she's having a hard time letting go of the "prestige" that goes along with the honor of being America's heaviest woman -- and said she views Eman as an upstart trying to usurp her hard-earned fame. (More.... seriously, it's worth the read...)
Because attempting to be the fattest woman in America is considered an "upstart" (a term generally used to describe entrepreneurship)...

Proud and Thankful to Be An American...

~Ivy ...and some et al...
(I would recognize those et als who are present for this entry today, however, since they do not often share my loving nature...they shall remain nameless...if I was to convey a message they are giving me, it's somewhere around the "Shut the fuck up with this touchy feely caring bullshit, nobody deserves to be thankful for shit, who cares...". Yep, so thankful...)

*We recommend reading The Language Police by Diane Ravitch to learn how history is changed over time due to government and special interest policies.

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

When All You Can Write Is Ramble

We’re discussing with ourselves whether or not to go to an every other day schedule of blog posts for the time being, or keep on trying to blog everyday. We've been working on planning out tour (see: and “launching” out t-shirt design page (, and then…you know…there’s Twitter…and the holidays. (*whimpers*our first holidays in about seven years...)

We’ve been waking up and too often the though it “what will we write about today” crosses our mind, and we know something should be put here everyday, for habits sake (read: ), however, we want the posts to mean something to us…we know, you read these too, but for us this blog is primarily for’s the tracker of our life, and … right now…we could probably write about, obsess about,  things such as:
  • ·         Every time The Mother talks our brain sizzles and fizzles and we can barely process a thought. It's like an ice pick.
  • ·         The struggles of a relationship while living with DID.  How do the people we know [now, thanks to Twitter] who have DID manage their relationships? We had a very tearful discussion with James (The Boyfriend) last night…about some of our others (alters).
  • ·         One day we will need to be employed, again…and try to maintain a real job..our track record is not so good…and based on the USA employment situation, and us, entering it again for the first time in seven PLUS years (we were living and working outside of the USA for the past seven) makes us nervous…what will we do, with our backpain (often time debilitating), and with our…us...issue…we've never been employed for long.

And so much more.

And now we border the defensive...

People on twitter think we drink a lot, and are always drunk (as do, apparently, some of our previous friends, after we cut them from our life)…but we’re not. We have only been drunk once in the last week. We’re pretty tipsy now, but still, we’re not stupid drunk…we can can write, and listen to the mother yap (barely) in the background, and form other thoughts…we’re not sure what being drunk feels like to most people. We just feel a lot more relaxed, our back hurts less, and we’re more tolerant to…things like The Mother. It’s why we’d like to be at least tipsy everyday before she arrives home...

Some people might be okay, being 32 (collectively as the oldest we are, in our case) and living with their parent, their boyfriend joining them…but still, deep inside…we can’t help but think that our potential is being squandered, even though we have no clue what our potential may be…because we’re sure we’ve never reached it, and if we have….well, then we’ve squandered it somewhere, and please, let us know where.

But then...not everyone has can they with so many people in the world (at least 6,840,507,000 as of 2010)

We’d love to ramble on and on about how people don’t choose to be unemployed, like us. Though this time, we were forced to move, and it IS a choice because we have travel plans in the near future, and we needed a "mental health" break. Being "aimless" is akin to feeling lost…but, uggg, whatever, The Mother is bitching and we just lost that thought...

We’ve worked with poor, homeless and unemployed people, and you begin to learn, some of that misfortune happens by choice, some of it is a decision they make, and some of it you will never understand, unless you do...and sometimes they fight to have their next job, they fight to buck the system...they don't want to be part of it.

So, we could have written about anything tonight, instead you got that, because…we’re trying to decide how, and what, to write about…beause writing about only us…we don’t want to do that all the time, at least I don't…there is a whole damn world out there, and a whole lot of shit going on, and we are but a tiny fragment, not even a worker ant…living in their mother’s basement…trying to decide the next move, and not squander our potential potential…because life is short, as anyone who has experienced near death understands…and…being stagnant, is frustrating.

So...Viola! A blog post...

Now, back to pain-free inebriation.

Monday, November 21, 2011

We Answer Some Follower Questions: Part II

When @MentalErrorist sent us a series of DM’s this past week, asking us questions about our Dissociative Identity Disorder/Multiple Personality Disorder, we decided after several exchanges that 140 characters was no way to get some of our answers to his questions across adequately, and asked him if we could answer his questions in a blog post (because he reads our blog, as well as follows us on Twitter), like we had with some of our other followers back in May ( It's easier than having to ask these questions, should they arise again in the future from someone else, all over again.

One of the questions @MentalErrorist asked us about was whether or not we “share a common sense of humour? Or [if it’s] coloured by [our] different experiences.” He also asked about The Other Girl, and who Frank is and whether or not she is a spokesperson, or just what we call our collective - collective being what many people refer to our system*, these days.

We are each different, we are individuals, and have different characteristics, as far as we, people who are close to us, and James (The Boyfriend) are concerned, and as such, the easy answer would be to simply say "yes", our senses of humour are coloured by our different experiences, and memories.

We don’t always agree with each other, those among our system, sometimes in extreme ways, as we have written about a few times here in the blog. In addition to not agreeing with each other there are definitely differences in our senses of humour, although more often than not our milder styles of humour is something we all enjoy about each other, it’s where it starts to deviate that some of us are less entertained by each other, and sometimes appalled; for instance, some us do not think it’s funny to make jokes about turning people into sleds using their flesh, kicking puppies, stabbing annoying spoiled children, jokes about sex…and some of us actually make jokes about these things, but also 98% of the things we joke about on Twitter are not made-up jokes, they are things in our mind that we are trying to deal with through humour, trying to remove from our brain in the form of words - and some of the things in our mind disturb some of our alters*. There are currently** ten alters in our system that we know of.
On occasion we joke about things that later make one of us uncomfortable, for example, for some of us sex commentary (or jokes, if you will) makes us uncomfortable; or, like for our youngest alter…kicking puppies, makes he upset; same when The Boyfriend says something mean about the cats (her "kitties") - but just like when any number of our followers makes a joke one us may not find particularly funny, we shrug and in our case talk to each other about it. It tends to be difficult to do/say something to most of us that would offend us, but then…everyone has their one weak spot, we’ve offended ourselves on occasion.

Like other people who claim to not be offended by anything, there’s always something that will do it, it's part of being human, and have sensitivities.

Our differences actually extend into all facets of our life, not just our humour, from food, tastes in movies, sometimes things that interest us on a recreational level, even things like drinking and…sex.

We could write an entire blog entry on how we each differ in how we handle intimate relationship activities (sex stuff), and just like our sense of humour, our differences are coloured by experiences we’ve had, and sometimes we are not sure what those experiences are, for some of us anyway.

For example, just a short one, one of us (“Ten”, [since has been named Joy] who the boyfriend has written about: hates kissing, and she calls it “gross”, she tells James, to his face, that kissing is gross; it’s not the she thinks it is gross, or he is gross; she says it makes her feel gross, sometimes it makes her want to cry being “intimate” which makes her uncomfortable, because she feels “dirty” (she doesn't like to feel that way at all)…and not in the way some of us like to feel dirty, because between you and me? I like things a little dirty sometimes...but not like our Emmie.
Now that I feel we have answered that question (and if not, please let us know where we can clarify), let’s move on to @MentalErrorist’s other question.“You mention "The Other Girl"...was she the first? It wasn't really clear on who "Frank" was either, other "Frank" your spokesperson? Or just a collective?”

The Other Girl…we wrote about her about five months ago, most of what you need to know about her can be found in this entry: She was what is known as our core*, as far as we understand, and we have since “eliminated” her.

We have come to find out that eliminating a core is not a common thing to do, but thanks to one of our followers who is a psychotherapist; who is also our internet friend (who we hope to meet someday), who reads our blog, who sometimes offers e-mail support when James needs someone to talk to, who works with, and has worked with, patience “suffering” from DID/MPD; we know it has been done, and successfully, with very positive results.
Frank (me) is one of our Others, I am the second known personality (as far as we understand), and until this past year (March?) I had only known about one of our other alters, Bethany, who is the youngest alter in our system – some professionals may refer to her as our “Little” (which is a term used in Dissociative Identity Disorder to describe a personality aged about 1 years old to 9 years old…Bethany is 6). It became clearer, since I knew how old she was, that some of the behaviors I was attributing to her were not possible for a six year old.

There has been a lot written about me (Frank) this year, maybe it hasn’t been clear who I am, but there will be even more written about me in the next story (story twelve) written about our lives (this one being the eleventh and most recent one:, so maybe it will become easier to understand.

I guess I can be considered a spokesperson, however I am an alter* and my main function, in the past, as it is now, is to try to organize all of the personalities to work together, sometimes to organize/motivate us to survive, cope and/or escape bad/negative life situations; in the past I have worked to make sure The Other Girl could take care of her situations, not knowing that each time I had helped her I was helping other alters, it’s not something I understood until this past year, when I got tired of not having my own life, and got tired of her negatively impacting our lives, and worked to “eliminate” her and found out about the other alters...and in eliminating her have to be the responsible replacement-core, because none of us can actually be the core.

We have, I have, learned this year that alters are not usually aware of each other early in life, and in some cases, they never come to that point unless there are circumstances which force it to happen. Circumstances like therapy, from the right therapist (we have had many therapists and mis-diagnoses), in a mental health situation; or events that finally…for a lack of a word…set it all on fire.

~ Frank

*Dissociative Identity/Multiple Personality Disorder common terminology

Personality Specific Terms
Alter: alter states, selves, parts (a subjective term); distinct personalities; fragments alternate personality, personality state, ego state or identity with its own unique perspectives, abilities, memories or other traits that differ from the Host or Executive personality.
The Core: The original birth personality.
Host: is the alter personality who dominates the control of the body most of the time and is often unaware of the other personalities. The host is usually the alter personality who will initiate after experiencing symptoms of mental distress, such as, anxiety, triggers or recovered memories.
Executive: When a personality (alter ego) has control of the body.
Switch: To switch from one personality to another. The process of an alter coming out from the subconscious mind into the consciousness mind while the other alter (who was already in the consciousness mind) slips back into the subconscious mind.
Who's out? A common question used to determine which personality is executive or host.
Co-conscious(ness): (The Core) A state of being aware of what the other personalities are doing and saying.

Other Common Terms:
Acquired: Anything that is not present at birth but develops some time later. In medicine, the word "acquired" implies "new" or "added." An acquired condition is "new" in the sense that it is not genetic (inherited) and "added" in the sense that was not present at birth.
Triggers: Hysterical conversion symptoms or body memories. Physical phenomenon such as pain, smells, tastes, etc.; re-experienced again.
Dissociation: In psychology and psychiatry, a perceived detachment of the mind from the emotional state or even from the body. Dissociation is characterized by a sense of the world as a dreamlike or unreal place and may be accompanied by poor memory of the specific events, which in severe form is known as dissociative amnesia.
Re-live: A total memory recall (includes visual, emotional, physical and all other senses).
Losing time: Also known as a Dissociative Fugue, is the period of which an alter personality is in the subconscious mind and has no recollection of the time that is being utilized by the alter personality who is occupying the conscious mind. Therefore when the alter switches into the conscious mind they realize that minutes, hours, days, or even months and years have passed since they were last aware of time.
System: is the structure of relationships between the alter personalities who live within the internal world of a survivor with D.I.D. Every system is created and operates in it's own unique way, just like every family living in their own homes run their households different from the next door neighbour.
Inner (Self) Helper: is usually the alter personality who has a good understanding of the system and how it works. The I.S.H. is also among the typical group of helpers or protector personalities.
Grounding: is the process of disrupting a dissociative episode and is accomplished by tugging on an earlobe, rubbing the hands together, or shuffling the feet back and forth. This type of physical stimuli can bring the survivors mind back to awareness of their surroundings, and helps to make them feel less animated.

** When we say that we know of it’s because DID/MPD Mapping is a process, a process that for us had been interrupted by many stressful life events this past summer (all of which have been written about). More on what mapping is…

Mapping is a technique used to learn about an individual's internal personality system. The client is asked to draw a map or diagram of his or her personality states. As therapy progresses, the client is asked to update the map; also known as personality mapping or system mapping. [source:]

Information on mapping Dissicoiative Identity Disorder: (Written November 4th, 2010 / by Holly Gray)

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Title Not Included

A stressful (but mostly enjoyable day) leads us to no real blog post for the evening...we are working on answering some question that have recently DM'd to us by a follower, about our individual senses of humour, and about The Other Girl and Frank...but we have lost focus in that...we kind of what to curl into a ball right now.

Anyway, until we are done with that entry please read the last couple days of entries, there are archives and stuff in them...

...we have a headache to attend to.

Friday, November 18, 2011

Something About Boredom


People say it often…and a lot on Twitter, surprisingly.

“I’m BORED”…

What does it mean to be bored?

Merriam Webster says being bored is “the state of being weary and restless through lack of interest”…Wikipedia says “Boredom is an emotional state experienced when an individual is without any activity or is not interested in their surroundings.”

Boredom, is a word first recorded in a text by Charles Dickens, (Bleak House – 1852) and used to describe something “tiresome or dull" since 1768.

Our Grandmother (The Father’s Mother) used to tell us all the time that there is no reason for boredom. She made it clear to us that boredom was something people with no imagination experienced, probably at the age of 8 or 9 we knew better than to express “boredom” in front of Grandma!

But we were hardly ever bored as children anyway; there were books, paper and pens. Just those alone were enough to sustain us for hours and days. We just wanted to be left alone with books and paper.

So why do people get bored? Why do some of you get bored?

According to the guy who writes for Dragos Roua ( “boredom is a state of anxiety and low self-respect.” He’s got some interesting things to say about people and why they get bored; instead of repeating it here we’ll just give you the link: You can figure out if he knows what he’s talking about at all.

This isn’t a super inspiring blog post, we know. Despite the fact we are many (which makes boredom easy to avoid)…when we are not many (because sometimes it’s just one of us)…we still don’t understand boredom, so we wanted to field the question: How/why do people get bored?!
In a world with book, movies, music, video games, cultural activities, internet (and EVERYTHING that entails), gyms, computers (non-internet attached and all that THAT entails), cable television…not to mention…imagination, paper, pens, craft supplies, art supplies…it’s endless…how are people fucking bored.

Sometimes we get anxious, all of us individually, and it’s not from boredom, it’s from the sheer amount of stuff we can/could/want to be doing!

There are no limits…how can anyone be bored with no limits?!

~Frank et al

Didn't like this post? Want more to read because you're bored? Yesterday's post gave an example of one of the ways we entertain ourselves, plus at the bottom some links to our best/more interesting writing on this blog. Check it our here:

Thursday, November 17, 2011

Show And Tell

Bet you wonder what we do all day, since we're hardly ever on Twitter during the daylight hours these days

Okay, so you probably don't wonder, but we're gonna tell you anyway!

We've started making designs for t-shirts/products. We're not going to make the link super public just yet, but our Friends on Facebook got the link last night, and we're uploading the images to an album there.

Some of the designs will have our better/more popular Tweets on them with imagery that corresponds...Want to see some samples?

Sure ya don't! But we're gonna fucking show you anyway.

Here is a far we have nine designs...but we're not going to show you all of them, we'll be making more over the next couple of days, as long as I can locate Ivy again. We're not all as creative as she is, and without her influence at all...yeah, I'm just going to have a few drinks.

American Standards...Toilets...setting the bar for America. :)This design is dedicated to our follower/"TwitterPal" @GASmithIV, he is a political inspiration to one of us.
We got the inspiration for this design from a follower (@JoeMacGiggity) who wrote the word in a tweet to us one day this past week.
Probably how Jesus would feel about people claiming to see him in their toast.
This one is a Special Addition version of a similar, but less "patriotic" design we did.
Here is an example of our "logo"...that's's on a cutting board. It's also on a lot of other stuff though.
All of our designs are going to be on t-shirts, and BBQ aprons and ipad/laptop sleves and coasters, and travel mugs (you know, for wine) and all sorts of fun stuff!

So, yeah, that's what we've been doing, mostly because...well, why not? We can't spend ALL day on Twitter, and there is nothing to do in this fucking town...and we're not about to look for a job when we only have less than two months before we go to Europe with James (The Boyfriend).

Meh, it's exciting for us anyway...and we needed a break from writing.

Last weekend after Frank and us wrote the newest entry/next chapter to our life we became fairly "down in the dumps" for a few days, we didn't drink all weekend, we didn't drink until last night, actually. We were sad, and we lay in bed and felt like shit, mentally and physically. It took a lot out of us to gather our memories together, and the memories are becoming more recent ones, and it's stuff some of us are already trying to pawn off on each other, things we've tried to forget The Other Girl., for example; because some of us would prefer to forget a lot. But that's not how we are going to operate anymore, so ... it's a struggle with each other.

We're better-ish now of course, we're just going to write about some things that interest us for awhile, and use whatever skills we have to pull through the next week or so...because, Thanksgiving, you know...the first one with The Brothers and The Mother since we were in our early teens.

We plan to get back to the painting soon, but the basement doesn't have the space (or lighting) for setting up the easel, and the garage is a bit chilly for now; The Step-Dad is having heat put in and an insulated door, because he's going to turn it into his "man-cave", so once he does that we can use it during the day as a painting studio. Ivy sure would like to get back to painting, we have a couple we need to finish and just ordered two rolls of canvas and stretcher strips to stretch about 18 new canvases. Until then, we have other things to do that help each of us cope with new living quarters.

It's all about keeping our head above water...when some days all we want to do is shove ourselves under.


P.S. In case you don't poke around here much, I imported our better stuff from our recommendations page, it's got some good stuff about mental health, food, art, opinion, even sex! It's also got stuff we've written about things that have happened to us this last year, things with friends, families and people we love(d)...the list goes on and are free to read whatever you want of it...or not.

The Mental Health Entries:
Dissociative Identity Disorder/Multiple Personality Disorder