Thursday, May 26, 2011

A Little Bit of Emmie

We finally got the Blogger to let us into the blog, after all day, so that's cool - but we got all excited about not having to write tonight because we wrote twice yesterday and we've been writing a ton! A ton! Plus, I want to create some "me" time tonight ;-)

But, Frank has rules, so here we sit...before we crack open the wine...

Nothing is new with the Fuck Face...we don't like to see him sad, so we sent him some funny-ish messages later today, after some of us were doing being bitchy with him, and we cracked jokes during the meeting - he thinks we are really funny sometimes, even when we make fun of him for living in the barn, and things like that. 
When we were leaving today and walking across the street, talking about going drinking at the grocery store tonight, and we said, with a giant smirk on our face:

"So, what's your big plans for the evening?" and then laugh at him, knowing full well that while he has been allowed in the house for longer periods of time, she is still not hanging out with him and he will likely spend the evening doing goodness knows what, moping around their house and drinking. 
He smiled big when he knew we were poking fun at him, then we apologized for being a bit mean. We were giddy from sitting with him in the meeting, and getting to chat with him before Fabulous Person (
1/2 of Fabulous People) showed up, who was the only other person in our meeting, AND we love it when we can make him smile and laugh. 

We just love him. Some of us more than others, and of course Melody not all, but she's designed not to love anyone anyway, (
except us - and even some of us she's not so fond of) so...we all love him...still...even though we know he's not that nice of a person, but in our experience even the nice ones turn out to be not-so-nice - you don't know because we haven't written about some of them, particularly our last boyfriend, who we broke up with a year ago, coming this August, who we dated for two years, and who turned out to be a dumb shit. Only a couple of us loved him - not all of us. Mostly The Other Girl, and a few of us were fond of him. Not Frank. Frank disliked him a lot - because he was a shit.

I requested that we post this song, it's one my favorites and makes me think of Fuck Face. I'm  fascinated by him and honestly, I probably just like the way he does bad things with us, at my insistence. Most men have me sitting back and cleaning my nails with how boring they so consistently are. We are not always into vanilla. He's also pretty intelligent...and that gets me going, piques my interest.

There is talk that Frank it letting me start my own blog soon, because the kind of stuff I like to write on my own is...dirty...and has to come with an adult warning. I don't write often, other than a few explicit dirty fantasies I wrote for Fuck Face, I haven't written much since we were in High School, but I'd looooove to take a stab at it again.

Did I  mention this song makes me want to dance around in my panties;)

XOXOX ~ Emmie (Esmarelda)

For the month of May, Mental Health Awareness Month, we will be posting this at he bottom of each of our entries, to help provide additional information about us, and about Dissociative Identiry Disorder/Multiple Personality Disorder.

10 Things You Should Know About US That MIGHT Surprise YOU:
  1. We used to be a Baptist missionary (yeah, can you fucking believe that shit?!) [we are NOT religious]
  2. We were once married (didn’t last long) [one of our stories talks about him]
  3. We have had nearly 30 physical addresses in 30 years, mostly as an adult (nothing could contain us in the early days) [we actually own a house, but choose not to live in it]
  4. We’ve lived in 2 countries: 1 province and 6-7 different states (running much)
  5. We have lost 120 pounds since the age of 24 (100 of it when we were 24) [and it's close to 140 pounds now)
  6. We have a full time job (well, now it's 32 hours a week - but they actually let us work around the other humans!) [it get's harder everyday, and this is the longest we've ever had a single job since we were 17. We've been there almost a year]
  7. We deal with social anxiety type symptoms every day (and these days we choose not to leave home much, but for going to work) [there are about three people we feel comfortable with being in public with and sometimes we have to be out there alone]
  8. We have multiple “mental illness” diagnoses (doesn't everybody?) [p.s. all misdiagnosed]
  9. We have two beautiful cats, who piss us off every day (but they are special, because they put up with us) [though one of us hates them beyond belief]
  10. We have struggled to survive, over and over, defeating the odds thrown against us (read our stories) [seriously, how are we not dead yet?]
We've copied the stories written here that are specifically about our past (mostly abuse) and moved them to our other blog, called:

Addressing The Issue of Frank: The Origins, History and Life Story of Frank, from "Just Call Me Frank: One Womans Endeavour At Being Frank"  
(this blog also contains our artwork/photography - the following links will take you to that blog)
Some of our writing on this blog we like to promote (consider them highlights), these are those entries since mid-January 2011. There are bits of writing in this blog that we do not actually promote due to embarrassment over things that some have written - they are here for our own tracking - they are angry, mean, scary things. If you feel like it you can find them on your own (they are in the What We've Been Up To over on the left). Here are the highlights of what we have written so far this year:

The Mental Health Entries:
Dissociative Identity Disorder/Multiple Personality Disorder
Humour/Random Fun:
If you have any questions for us we are very open and will answer to our best ability - this is totally the month to ask us questions. You can either ask us on Twitter, in the comment section of a blog entry here, or e-mail us at justcallmefrank2010 (at)

Resources for You - facts, figures and personal stories of other people can be found on these sites:
National Institute of Mental Health:
American Psychological Association:
Canadian Mental Health Association:
Mental Health Europe:
World Psychiatric Association:

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