We only have a week left with James, he leaves on Monday the 22nd ; next week this time when we walk into the apartment and say "Honey! We're home!" and will only have the cats to greet us, instead of our 6' tall, beautiful, wonderful & patient boyfriend (yes, we've gone a bit soppy right there - and one of us had a good cry last night before we fell asleep)...and now we'll have to get our own wine from the kitchen, and carry our own groceries, and touch ourselves...that better? We'll be alone again, which some of us are really okay with...back to dancing and drinking wine at the grocery store on Saturday night.
Anyway, our body aches from head to toe from our first day of our new job. It started half way through our shift. We hope it's only because we are needing to get used to it...but we know better...we know that this is going to increase the destruction that our body endured in the car accident even more, the destruction and pain that made our instructor of Culinary Arts tell us "you will not last in this industry 10 years..." (because of our back), but we have little choice because we are not eligible for any sorts of disability benefits in the city we choose to live, even though we have several; not that we would want to go that route anyway - we just need to find a job that fits us, we suppose....and not get fired from it. We also hope we can somehow make this job part-time. We don't need it to be full-time. But it's a job. And we know we should feel lucky we have one, but tell you what. We'd trade your (speaking to the unemployed, who say they want to find a job) unemployment check for our job in a heartbeat. We can live on very little money, we've been doing it our entire life.
So with our arthritis and our disintegrating spine, along with all our other stupid problems mental health problems and stupid mild brain damage...we will work this job until...well, until we quit or get fired; because history hasn't shown us we can maintain a job more than a year without one of the two happening. (Don't feel sorry for us, if you think you do, that would be fucking bullshit, we are merely here, sharing our life with many people, and being as honest as we can about the things that occur and the feelings that we have.)
Maybe something else will come along (if anyone wants to hire a website graphic designer, we've done that...as well as social media *smiles* sorry for the little plug), but until then, as usual, we gotta do what we gotta do...which is going to make us all come home at the end if the day and try to find ways to deal with the pain. Hopefully it doesn't get as bad as it was in March. At least we have Twitter...our Tweeple...and wine.
Just in case we don't post a lot this week, read other stuff around here; here are the links on our...."Our Recommendations...Weeded from our Feeded" page...
Some of our writing on this blog we like to promote (consider them highlights), these are those entries since mid-January 2011. There are bits of writing in this blog that we do not actually promote due to embarrassment over things that some have written - they are here for our own tracking - they are angry, mean, scary things. If you feel like it you can find them on your own (they are in the What We've Been Up To over on the left). Here are the highlights of what we have written so far this year. There are some repeated under different subjects because some blog entries deal with more than one subject matter.
The Mental Health Entries:
Dissociative Identity Disorder/Multiple Personality Disorder
Dissociative Identity Disorder/Multiple Personality Disorder
- Mental Health Awareness Month: Our Introduction
- The Other Girl
- The Other Girl: Her Final Journal
- We Chat With The Father About DID (this post contains information on what DID is)
- Frank Gets Candid (We talk about Catherine, one of our alters)
- **We Freak Out** (this was a very important day, the day we met Marisa, recoverer of DID)
- We Are Fragments
- We / We Get Random / We Have Questions
- Marisa Answers Our Questions
- Frank Gets Candid, About Memories...and Bethany (we talk about one of our alters)
- A Note From Frank, and ONLY Frank (actually not written by Frank)
- Standby and The Death of the Other Girl: Part 1 of 3 (we start talking about the death of one of our alters [our core])
- Our Ears May Be Burning (we talk about what people we recently knew might be saying over Easter)
- We Just Need A Good Map (Mental Health Awareness Month Post - Frank talks about DID mapping)
- We Don't Do A Blog Post (we talk a little about mapping, Bethany, unicorns & stuff)
- We Discuss Three Mis-Diagnosed Mental Illnesses
- A Day In The Room (Writing done by those other than Frank et al)
- We Have Nothing To Lose (Cassandra talks about the death of a mentally ill "friend")
- Frank Lets You Know Bitch (me!) (Bethany got to write her very own entry about herself)
- Sam Gets Angry About Ignorance (Written by Sam)
- A Little Bit Of Emmie (Written by Emmie)
- Sam Gets Set-Off (written by Sam)
- We Answer Some Follower Questions
- Cassandra Writes About 'Someone Special' (Written by Cassandra)
- One of Us Has Sociopathic Tendencies (Written by Melody)
The Other Girl - Stuff She Wrote: - The Other Girl: A Travel Journal: Canada to Berlin
- The Other Girl: A Travel Journal Part II: Berlin, Germany
- The Other Girl: A Travel Journal Part III: Munich, Germany
- The Other Girl: A Travel Journal Part IV: Germany -The Final Days
- The Other Girl: A Travel Journal Part V: Germany In Photography
- The Other Girl: A Travel Journal Part VI: Amsterdam In Photography
- The Other Girl: A Travel Journal Part VII: Cairo, Egypt
- The Other Girl: A Travel Journal Part VIII: Alexandria, Egypt
Health:
- When Anxiety Attacks
- Franks/Our 100 Pound Weight Loss Story
- Collision: The Other Girls/Our Terrible Car Accident
- Stress and Expediential Weight Loss
- New Pain and Old Fear
Family:
- Why Most Of Us Dislike Our Mother
- We Chat With The Father About DID (this post contains information on what DID is)
- A Few Hours With The Father and Baby Brother
- Father's Day, It's All About Our Father
Relationships:
- Relationships, Frank...and Love
- Our First Girlfriend
- The First Boy We Liked, That Liked Us Back
- An Ass-Face Comes A Texting
- We Go To University, We Take A Lover
Standby: - To A Human, If Indeed That Is What You Are (1 of 3)
- The "Death" of Standby and the "Birth" of a Villain (2 of 3)
- Standby: The Final Chapter (3 of 3)
- Standby and The Death of the Other Girl: Part 1 of 3 (to be continued)
Fuck Face: - A Mistress Without Cutlery
- What Become Of The Broken Hearted
- Fuck Face: Who He Is (also work related)
- The Demise of Fuck Face...Part 1
- The Demise of Fuck Face...Part 2
- The Demise of Fuck Face...Part 3
- The Demise of Fuck Face...Part 4
- The Demise of Fuck Face...Part 5
- The Demise of Fuck Face...Part 6
- We Have Drinks With Fuck Face
- To Send, or Not To Send...The E-mail Is The Question
- Situation Stand Still
James: - 50,000 Tweets and All We Got Was...
- A 'State of the Union' Re: The Visit of Our Twittercrush James
- James and the Giant Peach Pit...Of Despair
Friendships: - Friends: A Tale of The Non-Bestie
- Our Ears May Be Burning
- We Have Nothing To Lose
- Girl Crush Gets The 411 on Us
- A Frank Evening With Fabulous People and The Pup
- We Get An E-Mail Intervention
- We Get An E-Mail INtervention: Followup: The Followup
Work:
- Please Don't Let Us Be Misunderstood
- All We Have Is Hope
- Cooking With Frank
- A Distraction, In The Form of The Jeans
- Seriously...And @NickSilly Answers Some Questions
- We Get A Guest Blogger - Kinky Sex!
- We Have Nothing To Lose
- How We Feel About Advice...and We Ramble
- Sometimes Karma is a Bitch for a Reason (1 of 3)
- Life Kicks Us in the Ass at Every Turn (2 of 3)
- ...More Ass Kicking From Life... (3 of 3)
- Fuck Face Gets Fired and What We Think About That
- We Get A New Job and James Meets Fuck Face
Opinion:
- Religion, You Say? We Have A View On That
- Growth and Change; An Artist Standpoint
- Birds of A Feather, on Twitter, CAN Flock Together
- For Us, It's All About Team Awesome...and Twitter
- Reading We Recommend: Casey Hannan
- Hell Ride: A Film Review
- You're Doing Twitter Wrong
Art/Poetry:
- Evil of Three: A Painting
- Saviour: A Painting
- Deadly Catch: A Painting
- Untitled Vision A: A Paiting
- Pretty Things: A Poem
- Erase This Poem
- Envisage of We: A Poem
Humour/Random/Fun:
- The Tale of the Barbie Massacre Trail/Part 1
- Happy Zombie Day A.K.A Happy Easter
- Love Juice...We're No Cosmo Magazine But...
- The Flavours of Emotions
- We Talk About Listing People On Twitter
- Who Are The Twitter Elite...And Of Course We Ramble
- You're Doing Twitter Wrong
Guest Bloggers:
- Our New Guest Blogger (Kerry Stott @kerrystott)
- Our Guest Blogger Writes About Depression (Kerry Stott @kerrystott)
- We Get A Guest Blogger (The Single Mom @singlemomdate)
Imported From Our Boyfriends Blog: - 'I Meet Cassandra And It Doesn't Go Well'
- 'A Rough Night, Not The Good Kind'
- 'Who's Here Today'
- 'I Talk to Cassandra'
- 'Nine of Nine'
- 'Meet Catherine, Not Bethany'
- 'Today Was A Good Day'
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