Organization = Mental Health?

The Organized Nature of Frank.

(not May)

A two-for-one day!

It's curious, I've always been a very organized person; when I travel I create a tabbed folder of maps, print outs, lists of attractions, emergency information and other goodies gleaned from hours of pouring over travel sites, books, magazines and my imagination. In many ways a lot of what I enjoy is the planning of a vacation – though the implementation of my plan is always exhilarating. Like a piece of art I save and file my travel folders; in my everyday life I have lists and lists laying around; I like to have structure (inside chaos) to my day; I like to plan and organize (even if I am not always so good at it); I like things to have places and for those things to be in them (even if it's in several baskets scattered around my apartment); I generally don't like to be left waiting (there are exceptions to that, but very specific exceptions); I have been known, until recently, for being the type of person who won't attend an event unless I have at least a week lead time; I have also cancelled plans with people if they did not confirm within 24 hours of the time we are supposed to meet, and when life prevents me from keeping my house organized (and clean) then with the clutter comes a fog in my brain, an inability to focus and chaos that's not welcome.

Since most of my life of planning hasn't turned out how I planned (not exactly, and not at all), and my recent experiments with dating and generally attempting “life off the cuff” (see: http://just-call-me-frank.blogspot.com/2010/10/so-this-evening-quite-ended-up-having.html AND http://just-call-me-frank.blogspot.com/2010_11_01_archive.html AND http://just-call-me-frank.blogspot.com/2010/10/halloween-as-scary-as-it-gets-for-me.html AND http://just-call-me-frank.blogspot.com/2010/10/laughing-at-insanity-but-whose.html for illustration on things I don't normally do, but did anyway, just for the sake of experimentation) haven't produced results I desire – I am pretty sure disorganization in so many corners of my life (every corner) is what sent me over the edge of reason. (yeah, yeah, mix in the details and it's not exactly a revelation) – again. I am back to trying to organize and prioritize my life, and the people and things in it.

By the way, I am still working on some music posts – but my internet connection is doing it's 'molasses in January' bit after a brief fix just a couple days ago, and so the going is slow for providing adequate linkage and information.