The thing about people, friends, significant others, and family members knowing where to find your blog is that over time it really limits what you can write about. Unless you're a complete and utter asshole, that is. So it forces abstract and brief commentary and statuses, here, there, in all the usual places ... nothing coming together to form anything tangible for anyone to fully understand.
We're currently trying to figure out a way to return to therapeutic blogging, the kind we used to do, because it was a helpful tool in the past. As we slide into familiar old patterns we're mentally clawing and grasping for that old life saver.
The stress and anxiety mounts. It's been so long since we've been able to really write.
Hopefully it will break soon.
I know what it's like to fall into bad habits. You fall down; you get back up again. Talk to your support person(s) if you are struggling. You've probably heard all of this before (as I have). This is not intended to discount your feelings or experiences into some easy formula; no such thing exists. Everyone's journey is unique.
ReplyDeleteDon't give up on yourself. You may be stronger than you think.